What is all about, Love
More than a story about psychedelics, which this is story includes some of it, I’m going to talk a little bit about my journey and how medicinal plants are part of it. They allow me to understand what everything is all about. Hope you can connect with this story. I was born and raised in Mexico City. Only child with divorced parents.
Thinking about the past, all my sentimental relationships were very toxic. My father was not very present in my life and I had the fear that the same thing would happen with my boyfriends. So constantly I was in relationships that crushed my self-esteem and psychological abuse was normal. I had an abortion at the age of 18 and I remember my ex-boyfriend at that time told me everything, that I was a murderer, slut etc. Even though I was the one that always left those relationships, I didn’t realize how that affected what I thought of myself, so I kept repeating the same pattern. When you live in a Chauvinist country is very hard realize that is the society you are in because is how you grow up and it is normalized.
Anyway, I knew my last ex 6 ago, we moved together. He was an alcoholic and he was constantly making comments of my nose (at the point I had surgery), about my weight, chauvinist jokes etc. After 3 years, the breaking point of what made me awaken was one night when he was very drunk, He let me walk alone to my car very late at night in a very dangerous area in Mexico City and a man tried to rape me. Today, that event I say It was a universe shout out. After that day I realized I was not willing to live like that. The toxic patterns were having an impact in my life, my job and me. The search of discovering who I was, my family history and loving life started. That is where Cannabis makes its move. I started consuming Cannabis in a conscious way. I moved back alone with my dog and Cannabis helped me discovering myself, opened my mind and I started enjoying life that even walking to the grocery was joyful. My job was the best thing and I even started to build my own company. Cannabis is meant to enhance the experience, not to be the experience. I also have a lot of respect for psychedelics and medicinal plants. I let to be guided and consume by them at the right time with the right people. Psychedelics came when I was in that moment of feeling happy in my life, discovering more and more about me. They came to explain me what was all about and to be more grateful with what I have. They give me faith and closure. They give me some answer when I asked them for. Like I said at the beginning, they are part of the journey.
If you wanted to know, not I’m married with the love of my life, finished my master and keep growing and enjoying life. (:
This story was written by a native Spanish speaker, in English, and was left un-edited.
